Let's try that again

I started blogging here, but then I completely forgot that I had a blog ^^;. So let's start off fresh :)

School's getting pretty boring. I'm beginning to think that the faculty I'm in just isn't the one for me. Not quite sure what I want to do with my life yet lol...I'm so hopeless~

I've been talking to this guy from online since the beginning of October. Hmmm since I don't want to give out his name, I guess I'll call him...D :). He just arrived to Canada from his vacation and I have to say that I'm kind of excited. I mean, we've talked on msn, talked on skype, texts, webcam, etc. So it's not like I don't know what he looks like...it's just that I've never met him in person. We're planning on spending some time together this week, plus for 5 days he's going to be home alone (because his parents went with him). He said that he wants me to come over. I have the feeling we're just going to chill and hangout (I have the feeling that he's still going to be tired from jetlag lol). Does that count as a date?

I've never been in a relationship with another guy before. I've never been in a relationship period. I was the fat wall flower in high school. I was bullied for a number of years, had low self-esteem, suicidal, the works. Only after making some pretty shitty mistakes, learning from them, and dropping a shit load of weight has it helped me to forgive and forget; and most importantly, to stop living in the past. I swear I am the king of run-on sentences, so I apologize ^^. I'll leave it at that lol it can have it's own post later when I feel like it hahaha.

But yeah, it kind of gets me nervous just thinking about it hahaha. I guess because it's kind of like the first time that someone I liked actually liked me back, you know? Now I'm remembering all those girls I crushed on hahahahaha omg. I hope things turn out good between D and I ^^ *fingers crossed* hahahahahahaha :P

There's supposed to be a meteor shower tonight and I'm waiting :). I told D and he told me that I wasn't going to be able to see it because it rains a lot here and it's pretty foggy since I live up on SFU res (on a mountain). But then I told him that I was still going to stay up and wait hehehe...:P I've never seen a meteor shower before so I'm pretty excited to see one!!

He probably thinks I'm a dumbass hahahahahaha.

"I want your drama, the touch of your hand. I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand" <3

I can't get enough of Lady GaGa's Bad Romance :P